• Leslie Crews

I never wanted to be popular. Why do you?

I listen to vinyl records and rummage the new inventory at Goodwill to find hidden gems that someone graciously donated.

I have a stack of VHS tapes that were purchased not ironically. My husband and I enjoy the low definition and marvel at the time it takes to rewind tapes. I prefer to wear glasses that remind me of the proud nerd that my dad reminded me that he was. His way of trying to make me feel better about not being considered cool in school. And I still love laying all over my momma, and putting on one-woman-shows in the kitchen, which thoroughly annoys my dog.

Although lived years have physically changed me, when I look back at the younger years, my tastes, and general feelings about life haven’t changed. Looking through pictures from the 80s confirms that I’ve always had a strong sense of who I am, what I want to do, and most importantly, what I refuse to deal with.

I realized how simple things were then and how comfortable I used to be. I was comfortable with just being myself. No filter. I’d occasionally get in trouble for it, but I was steadfast in what I wanted to do and I generally just wanted people to be nice, and not bother me, or anybody else for being themselves.

Be different from the majority. That was ingrained in me.

Now that I am at the age where I can see what my momma meant by, “Everyone that says they’re your friend isn’t your friend” and my daddy saying, “God bless the child that’s got his own”.

The annoyed, theatrical, and expressive child has grown into a woman that recognizes that my parents actually knew what they were talking about. It took years to fully understand where they were coming from but I see now that they understood the importance of individuality, perhaps because they were raised during the 60s and 70s. They instilled in their children the values of humility, compassion, faith in God, and confidence. I’m eternally grateful for my parents.

Humility, compassion, and confidence.

Living in a world where people will manipulate and steal from others, to look like the pinnacle of wealth and success, really has me questioning whether these are values that people find important anymore.

Has money and popularity become the driving force for what we call successful? Are people teaching children the value of kindness, or are they taught to dominate to get what they want in life?

Working, walking down the street, going to the store, watching people scurry across the street for fear of contamination. Hearing people speak negat